Aren’t dreams supposed to be a good thing?

After a long day, people usually look forward to getting some sleep and dreaming. Dreams are an escape from reality.

Wikipedia:
Dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.[
Dreams can have varying natures, such as frightening, exciting, magical, melancholic, adventurous, or sexual.
Sigmund Freud, who developed the discipline of psychoanalysis wrote extensively about dream theories and their interpretations. He explained dreams as manifestations of our deepest desires and anxieties, often relating to repressed childhood memories or obsessions.

I’ve had some great dreams in my life. And some pretty bad nightmares. But for the last (I don’t even know how long), I can’t stop dreaming about my ex, K. See my last blog for more explanation /background on my situation.

I dream about him all the time. Bad dreams, good dreams, random dreams. I’ve had dreams that he broke up with his girlfriend and we got our second chance. I’ve had dreams about getting into an argument with his girlfriend Liz, where I literally slapped her with all my might because she was saying that he never loved me and would never get back with me (I even woke up startled at the aggression I had shown in the dream). I’ve had dreams about his family. Dreams about him going to my mom for help breaking up with his girlfriend. Dreams where we talked and I felt like I missed my only chance and that it was too late- he had moved on and would never want to try again. I can’t even think of all the individual dreams because there have been so many.

I’ve even prayed a few times, to not dream at all, because I didn’t want to wake up sad for dreaming about him. Even the good dreams make me wake up sad because I am forced back into reality, where he is still happily in a relationship and I am stuck not being able to move on. As much as I love those good dreams about K, it hurts my heart because they aren’t real, and maybe never will be.

Even if I haven’t thought about him in a while, I’ll randomly have a dream about him, and it will bring all my feelings back up… It’s so conflicting sometimes! Obviously my subconscious thinks about him and all the possible outcomes, which is why I keep dreaming about him. And because I keep dreaming about him, it makes me feel like it has to be for a reason. Like me and K really are meant to be together. Like I should keep holding onto hope. I guess only time will tell the outcome.

But in the meantime, if anyone has any suggestions on how to not dream, I would be most appreciative!

~Aly

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