and BOOM! biological clock starts ticking…

Me and a female coworker had a nice discussion today about it. Nice to know I’m not the only one having a quarter life crisis!

I’ve always known I want kids; I’ve always said I wanted to be done having kids by 30. Of course, I assumed I would be married (or at least engaged) by 25. And now that I am 25 (and single), I realize this ideal may not be very realistic. It may sound silly, but I the few months leading up to my 25th birthday, I totally began feeling my biological clock tick. And being single makes it harder. And knowing that if I hadn’t messed things up and left my ex K (see previous posts), I could have those things that I want oh so badly already. If this doesn’t count as a quarter life crisis, I don’t know what does!

Sure, I could have settled and had kids with my last ex, or could go out, meet a nice guy and settle to get a family started, but that’s not how I want it to be. As much as it may suck seeing people all around me (younger, my age, a few years older) having babies and getting married, I’d rather wait for the right guy and right situation to have kids in. I know, eventually, it will be my turn. And not to say that I’m not thrilled for my family members and friends who are having kids, because I absolutely am! But it doesn’t help the ping of sadness I feel…

I never realized what it felt like to have your biological clock tick. It’s just like, BOOM! You are forced to realize that you are at an age you though you would be in a position to have children, and depressing to admit you are no where near where you though you would be. Empty Womb Syndrome! Ahh!

End rant. Sorry if I seem a little scatter brained today…


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