So about a week ago I started reading “The Single Woman: Life, Love, and a Dash of Sass” by Mandy Hale… It is so inspiring! An easy read, and I’ve really noticed that I can relate to just about everything she says.. I haven’t finished reading it yet, but I’m embracing it.
I’m learning to embrace ME. Who I am. That it’s ok to be single. That my happiness shouldn’t be reliant on if I have a man, or depend on any one else’s opinions of me either. I know my worth. I know it’s ok to be single, and ok to be happy with it. I know I’d rather wait for the right one to come along and join me on my journey in life, someone to compliment me, rather than complete me, because I am complete. It’s ok to focus on me so that I can figure out who I am, what my purpose in life it, and what my dreams are. And that I should chase my dreams…
I’m still figuring some of this stuff out. Like what my dreams are. What I want to do with my life. I’m 25, and still have no idea what I want to do for a career… I got my degree in photography, something I love doing as a hobby, but I don’t see myself doing it full time… And I guess it’s ok to not know right now. It’s ok to not know all the answers; I just need to have faith in God and know that He has a plan for me.
In other news, I’ve decided to start traveling, even if it’s alone! For a few weeks I’ve been kicking around the idea of going on a cruise. My mom’s extended side of the family (who I don’t really know) go on a group cruise every year. This year’s cruise is to the Bahamas, St Thomas, and St Maarten. I was dying to go, and tried talking my little sister or my mom and step dad to go with me.. But it happened that they can’t go.. So I faced this decision of stepping WAYYYYY out of my comfort zone and going alone with my mom’s extended family that I don’t know that well, or missing out on this amazing opportunity. At first I was really basing my decision on if I could get someone to go with me.. I almost got my mom and step dad to go, but then they backed out. After I found out they couldn’t go, I was so upset because I felt like that meant I couldn’t go.. And then I started reading “The Single Woman.” There was one section where she talked about moving outside your comfort zone and doing things you’ve always wanted to do, like traveling, and how she had a friend who recently went to Paris by herself. Through reading this book, I’ve begun to embrace being me, being single, doing the things I want to do, and not depend on anyone else for my happiness. Whether it’s a boyfriend or a family member, if I can’t find someone to do something with me, I am going to do it myself! I’ve already done solo trips to disneyland, and now I’m going out of the country for the first time on a 7 day cruise through the Bahamas! 😀 I am beyond excited… And a little nervous. But I know I will have my mom’s family there if I want to hang out with them, or I can meet new people. I can do whatever I want by myself but I’ll have them there to fall back on.
This is going to be one BIG adventure. And I am soooo excited! Even if I am going “alone”. I am about to have the best time of my life on this cruise in October!