Moving on is moving on…

Moving on is moving on.. Isn’t it? Doesn’t matter how you do it, as long as you do…

I’m tired of being hung up on exes. I’m tired of still being single when they are all moved on. Even if it isn’t exactly how they wanted, they are moving on/forward with their lives… Like J who is having a baby a year after we broke up. Maybe it’s now how he would have wanted or not with a girl he would have wanted it with, but his life is moving forward. Does it matter how it happens, as long as it does?

I don’t know…

Even K, my lost love… He was hung up on me for a long time, while I was in my crappy 3 1/2 year relationship with J. But he dated. A few people. And by the time I started coming around to my senses about him, he finally found happiness with Liz…. He struggled for a while, but he eventually was able to move on.

Everyone but me.. I wish I could. Or even knew how. When I was first single, I tried talking to a few guys. Went on dates. But none of the guys seemed right for me.. And so the last 8 months or so I haven’t tried. I haven’t found anyone who has caught my eye…

Should I just make myself find someone? Does it matter how I move on, as long as I do move on? I feel like it is just settling though.. I don’t want to keep thinking about my exes.. It hurts to see K’s fb page.. All his pics with Liz… I feel almost delusional sometimes, thinking there might still be this small chance down the line that he and Liz won’t work out, that him and I could get another shot…. It makes me feel mental sometimes…

Get with it Alyssa. Wake up and smell the dead roses.. Why can’t I just give up and accept that it isn’t going to happen?

Sorry.. I’m ranting again.. All this stormy weather here must be getting to me…. Or the constant dreaming about my exes… Ugh..

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.. Maybe I won’t dream tonight….

~Aly.

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17 thoughts on “Moving on is moving on…

    • I’m hoping so… But it’s been almost 4 1/2 years since K and I broke up. The last year and a half I’ve been struggling with all these old feelings that seemingly won’t go away.. It’s just hard.. Sometimes I just don’t understand why this hasn’t gone away yet, and seeing them all move on makes me feel stupid for not being able to yet… Like there is something wrong with me..

      As always, thanks for the comment teddylee!

      • Theres nothing wrong with you, believe me… i felt the same way about this girl for awhile, She kept showing up in my dreams and for some reason i was constantly being reminded of her, like i saw her name everywhere or a certain scent or a comment that reminded me of her… i will tell you it got easier with time… granted it still sits there..
        your welcome, i enjoy getting to know you through your posts…

      • Sounds just like my situation! It’s gotten a little better but I just wish something would change so I could either be over it completely or get another chance… Thanks and likewise! 🙂

      • The one I have feelings for? No… At that point I wasn’t able to communicate my feelings or if something was bothering me.. We got to a point where I felt unwanted.. I didn’t feel like he was giving me enough attention, so I ended up leaving rather quickly without ever explaining to him… And then I got right into a relationship with my ex J… If anything, I was the one who hurt him the most.. Nothing about our relationship was bad, nothing that couldn’t have been talked through or worked out, but I wasn’t capable of that at the time…

      • Yeah I know I have… I’ve grown up a lot since then, because of the mistakes I’ve made. I’ve grown as a person and worked through a lot of my issues that I was dealing with back then… I can see that I’ve made progress but in some aspects I feel like its all for nothing because I ruined the best relationship I had for no good reason and I cant do anything to change/fix it… It’s too late but I keep holding on…

      • Hope that I can fix my past mistakes. Hope that we could get another chance to date again. Idk… We always had such a string connection, and they few times we have talked since I started feeling this way again, I felt like something was still there. But he has had a girlfriend since this all came back up for me, so i am trying to respect that. I don’t talk to him. I respect that he has found someone else, and I would never want to ruin his happiness, but I can’t help but hold onto hope that if they do break up at some point that maybe he and I could have a healthier second chance… I dunno.. Maybe it’s stupid, but that’s just how I feel…

      • it’s not stupid aly… i mean you never know what will happen in the future you know.. just give it time… are you not interested in seeing anyone else?

      • I’ve tried. I went out in a few dates with 3 guys over the course of like 6 months. But I couldn’t get my ex out of my head. So I just haven’t tried the last few months… If I could find someone who I feel a genuine connection with, I’d be open to it, but right now I just feel like he is always going to be in the back of my head…

      • you were in love with him, hes gonna be in your thoughts… maybe what keeps an our thoughts is from not ready to move on.. maybe i am wrong, i still haven’t figured out why she still comes to me in my thoughts…

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