So I’m still Facebook friends with my ex J who is getting ready to have a baby with his new gf. Those who have read my previous blogs know about this situation… It doesn’t bug me anymore, especially since I figured out why I was having so many different emotions about it. It was more because I haven’t gotten these things yet, even though I’m trying to do things right and he is getting them (albeit not happily).
Anyway… I don’t necessarily want to be “friends” with him on Facebook anymore. But every time I go to delete him, I stop… I’m curious to see what the baby looks like or find other info out.. Like I recently got a more accurate date if when the baby is due, and what they’re going to name him… Part of me is curious and so I keep being “friends” with him because of that, and then part of me wants to sever ties- just delete him and put him in my past. I don’t want to hurt myself by allowing myself to see these things, in case it brings another mini emotional meltdown like when I first found out about it all. I don’t feel like it bothers me anymore but when I’m confronted with seeing him, who knows?
I don’t know what to do… Stay “friends”, delete J now, or wait until the baby is born and then delete him… I just feel like its curiosity that keeps me from unfriending him. I don’t have any feelings for him. I have absolutely no desire to get back with him or even talk to him…
Any words of advice? Any suggestions??