Confused

I need answers.. I feel like I’m stuck, unable to move forward in my life without some answers… But I don’t know how to go about getting them…

I need to know if there is any chance of a second chance with K. It’s been a year and 8 months since I realized I still had feelings for him, but he’s been in a relationship that whole time.. I didn’t want to disrespect his relationship so I’ve beat around the bush with him, the 2 times I have talked with him, but I’ve been unable to let go of him and hopes that there could be a maybe in the future. I’ve been waiting without really meaning to…

I tried moving on and they didn’t work out. K is always in the back of my mind. And I feel like I need to know, one way or the other, if he still feels anything for me and if he would want to maybe try again in the future (if/when he is out of a relationship). If he does, then I can keep waiting. If not, than ill have to be able to force myself to move on. I can’t just keep being stuck…

But I don’t know how to bring it up… It’s been 6 months since I last talked to him… And it was on his birthday so I had that as an excuse to reach out to him….

Although I still keep hope about K, I’ve kept myself open to meeting other people… Last night I hung out with one of my coworkers roommates in a group setting… A bunch of us coworkers went to a baseball game and the bar afterward.. He seems nice, and he asked if I wanted to grab dinner sometime.. I said yes.. But all the way home I was fighting the urge to text K. This happens when I drink.. Lol. But my point is K is always in the back of my mind after i meet someone because I still don’t know if I should make myself move on or if I should keep holding out for a possible maybe with K…

And one of my friends has a close guy friend she wants to set me up with.. He’s got a good job, is in school to be a surgeon, and seems like he is a great guy… I might go out with him too, just to see if I feel any spark…

I really am trying to keep my options open.. I don’t want to keep holding my breath for K if there ends up not being a second chance…

I’m ready for some answers… I need to know what to do….

~Aly.

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