Vivid Dreams at 2 am

It’s 2 am on the dot, and I just woke up from one of the most vivid dreams I’ve ever had… I’m wide awake right now, even though I have to be up in less than 4 hours..

It was about J, my last boyfriend, who I was in an unhealthy relationship with. The one who just has a baby with his new manager girlfriend he started almost immediately hooking up with when I dumped him..

I’m still in shock.. Was all that really in my subconscious??

It was soooo detailed. I woke up still feeling angry and hurt. I was screaming at him, slapping him, calling him names.. Mind you, I’ve NEVER hit someone in real life! I was screaming at the girl too. I told her about how he was trying to hook up with me right around when she found out she was pregnant. I cried and apologized to his parents, told them I was thankful to have met them. After talking to the girl and his parent, I go after him and catch him in bed with another girl, a friend of his new gf (an imaginary person my subconscious made up)… I was slapping him across the face. I called him a dick, a piece of shit, an asshole, and I told him how bad it hurt me to find out he got someone pregnant at the same time he was trying to get back and hook up with me… How there was no way I would ever forgive him…

God, it was so real… Was all that really in my subconscious??? I thought I was over J. But there was a lot of anger and resentment in my dream towards him and the girlfriend. Mostly towards him… I mean, I knew it hurt me, the circumstances of it all, but not how deep they went, or just how hurt I was…

Well it’s late, or early depending on how you look at it… I’m guna try and get some sleep before work…

Xoxo Aly.

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One thought on “Vivid Dreams at 2 am

  1. It is and was I’m your subconscious but it’s not always in the way it seems, I too dream about Scarlett and her parents ALOT and vividly like yourself and I think sometimes it’s a mix of acceptance, clarity and just also hidden thoughts, it can be triggered from a song a smell a comment something someone calls you, all subconsciously may make you think oh me and j did this or he said that and that’s what’s mine like with Scarlett people talk about stories and going places and when I talk about my experiences guess who was with me when I went places or did things?…..Scarlett which makes me end up dreaming about her alot

    I may be wrong but I’m just letting you know from what I experience in respect to your post 🙂

    G.S xx

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