I’m a huge country music fan… Wasn’t always, but now I love it! I just got back from seeing Miranda Lambert (she was amazing btw!).. Something about country music is just so up beat and up lifting. I can really relate in some way to every country song…

It helps keep me positive about life and love when I’m feeling sad.. But on the other hand, it makes me think of K… He was a country boy. Every song reminds me of him. And hearing all the love songs and seeing all the cute couples at the country concerts make me sad about him. Or just sad because I don’t have anyone (guy) there with me, singing me those love lyrics, dancing with me to those song. But since i associate country music with K, it mostly just makes me think about him and wish I could have gotten another chance with him…

It’s kind of funny because when K and I dated, I hated country music! I couldn’t stand it.. Now it’s all I listen to… Guess that’s just one of the many things about me that has changed since K. I’ve grown so much… I just wish I could have been with him like this, how I am now.

I had a good time, but now that I’m home, all I want to do is cry. I am trying to move on. I’m open to it. I’m making myself go on dates.

But I still think about K. I still feel that if he were single, there could be something there. Maybe. But maybe “maybe” is enough for me right now.. I’m keeping my options open, but what can it hurt to keep K as a possible option too? Not holding my breath, but like it or not, he is still here. In my mind and heart.

Call me crazy or whatever, but I still have feelings there… What if they are there for a reason??? What if God has K in mind for my “happily ever after”? Maybe not. But maybe yes. I can’t fully rule it out….

Sorry for rambling… It’s almost 1 am and I’m exhausted…. Maybe I will feel Differently tomorrow…


8 thoughts on “Country

  1. I’m so jealous right now! πŸ˜› I absolutely love country music! Old and new πŸ™‚ and believe it or not it’s something that Scarlett got me into I wouldn’t say I hated it when I met her but I didn’t listen to it,

    I know exactly how you feel about growing and wishing K could be with you as you are now and it’s a shame that you might not get that chance but a maybe is always a good chance, is there still contact? How have things been?

    Every day i feel better about the whole Scarlett thing I guess it’s just an acceptance thing more than a “over it” kinda feeling, I haven’t dated or spoke to another female since

    Just investing all the time into myself (I think it’s helping)

    Keep smiling and speak soon!

    G.S xo

    • There hasn’t been any contact since the last time I texted him a few months ago, when I last blogged about the conversation. I think I’ve been able to let go of him more since he told me he thought I should move on and it wasn’t fair for me to wait. But he is also still on my mind a lot. I haven’t been able to completely shake my feelings… So I think i’m just going to accept that it is what it is. I can keep wishing, and either something will come from it, or i’ll meet someone new and eventually completely let go of him. But for now, I don’t think it’s completely fair to tell myself “don’t feel that way.”

      I’m going on a blind date tomorrow with a new guy, a few years younger than me, so we’ll see how that goes! I’m not expecting it to lead to anything.. I don’t think a 22-23 year old guy will be looking for the same types of things as I am right now.. But you never know!

      xoxo Aly.

      • Ah I see, I think you’re still going through the motions but you are definitely in a better place with it, you’ll never completely forget about it all because you have memories etc but you’ll definitely either be blessed with what you hope (a rekindle) or a new chapter in your life, either way just keep letting fate do its thing!

        Wowwww very nice! I miss dating and the initial part its nice nervous and exciting in a way! Are you looking forward to it?, believe me there’s 22/23 year old guys that do think and wish the same things as you! I’m 23 and I would love to commit and settle etc but now since Scarlett my desires have dropped a little, but there are guys out there that do :), I hope it’s a good date and let me know how you get on, keep smiling and find out everything you need to know about him! I’m sure hell love you!!

        G.S xox

      • Yeah, I am just trying to let fate do it’s thing. I’m a strong believer that everything happens for a reason.”

        I’m nervous that I don’t know what he looks like, but it’ll be a double date with my friend that is setting us up and her husband, so I feel a little better knowing it won’t just be the two of us!! I’m not holding my breath or expecting anything huge to come of it, but I’m at least excited to go out and hopefully have some fun!

        And I will absolutely let you know how it goes!! πŸ˜‰
        Xoxo Aly.

      • Best way πŸ™‚ it’s a quote I always live by!

        Don’t be nervous πŸ™‚ just enjoy it for what it is no doubt your friend will know your tastes and what you look for and hopefully delivers you a nice man who will give you a lovely date :), you will have fun make the most of it and enjoy it for what it is like you said at least you’re not just dating on your own I will be thinking of you and sending my positive vibes!!!

        Fingers and toes crossed for you πŸ˜‰ 🌹🌹🌹🌹

        G.S xox

    • It went so well!!! We really hit it off.. He is very attractive and polite and nice! It’s almost 12:30 am here and I just got home. I didn’t expect anything from this but I don’t think it could have gone any better… πŸ™‚ I’m very excited to see him again!

      I’m going to blog about it all tomorrow morning..

      Xoxo Aly

      • Ahhhhh that’s brilliant!!! I’m so happy for you :)!!! Was sending you positive vibes! Sometimes it’s better when you expect nothing, like we’ve said before just let it happen whatever’s meant to happen πŸ™‚ keep smiling an I will keep a look out for your post! (It’s 9:34am here)

        G.S xox

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