To Do or Not To Do….

K’s birthday is in 2 days… The last 2-3 years I’ve texted him a simple ‘Happy birthday K’ and we ended up talking for hours each time… Last year I wasn’t sure if I should, I debated it all day long before finally texting him at like 3 in the afternoon, but I ended up being happy I did because we talked until 5 am.

I don’t know if I should this year though. Well, actually, I know I probably shouldn’t. He’s engaged. Maybe I should just leave him alone and let him be happy. But I want to text him. With no expectations, of course. I didn’t have any expectations last year, and that turned out ok for me…. Just a simple, ‘happy birthday’. What could it hurt??

I feel so lame, that I look forward to his birthday each year just because it’s the one day I have a valid reason to text him.

Part of me is curious if he would reply back this year. I wonder if he will ask how I’m doing with everything, like he did last year. I wonder if he still would care enough to see how I’m doing, trying to move on and heal from him, like he did last year.

But is there anything good that can come from it? Maybe some closure on my part… I don’t know what to do… I’ve been going back and forth on what I’ll do for a couple days now. And I’m sure I’ll change my find several times the next few days as well…

xoxo Aly

7 thoughts on “To Do or Not To Do….

  1. I tried with Scarlett a while back and I wasn’t successful, I didn’t hear a thing back, but in your heart you want to do it, I would usually say no because of my experience but hey he may reply and see how you are etc and it’s nice that you care enough to remember just keep positive and expect ANYTHING good and bad and don’t let it affect how far you’ve come. As long as it’ll help more than hurt you then do it

    I’m thinking of you and I really hope that you get what you would like because you deserve it aly!

    Aim for the stars

    G.S xoxo

    • I did end up texting him, just a simple “happy birthday K”. No reply, as of yet, but I’m not expecting one, really.

      I wish I didn’t still struggle with all of this. I wish I could just wake up one day (soon) and not have it bother me.. One day, it’ll happen, but not soon enough.

      Thanks GS! Hope all is well on your end!
      Xoxo aly

      • Do you feel better or worse for it?, like I said do your best to expect anything because you never know

        I know how you feel :(, I’ve had a pretty rocky day tbh with everything in regards to Scarlett some days it just hits me like a tonne of bricks. It used to just take over my mind every second of the day but it is less and less now.

        My mum told me she saw her the other day and that shed changed the way she looks etc, and it made me wonder how and why I’ve not crossed paths but maybe it’s someone’s way of keeping my heart and giving it a rest who knows, I’ve been told it gets easier but I’m not so sure, the heart doesn’t lie but you can’t live your life hoping and wishing and missing someone who might not miss you (so I keep getting told about my situation).

        Alls well thank you, new job is pretty tiring and tough hense why no posts but I make time to check yours and a few close friends, keep smiling and stay strong you will find the answers just invest in YOU time and just keep busy

        GS xoxo

      • I feel good about it. Even if he doesn’t reply. For me, it was something I felt I wanted and needed to do..

        Sometimes I wonder how I haven’t run into K as well. I don’t know how I would handle it or what I would even do, so maybe it’s for the best…

        I always look forward to hearing from you! It makes me feel special that you take the time to follow my blog and life. 🙂

      • That’s okay then, I felt like a complete idiot when I sent mine, probably because I knew deep down she wouldn’t reply, at least you’ve done the right thing for you and see it this way it’s his loss if he doesn’t reply and at least say thank you for the wish :).

        Yeah that’s the same as me I really don’t know what I would do or how id react, would I smile or wave or stop and talk I don’t even know if I’d want to, ATM as long as she’s happy then I wish her well but I’m happy just tryin to pretend that all this hasn’t happened lmao because last time I nearly bumped into her parents I had a panic attack hahaha!

        Bless you same with you! And you are special!!! But also I do care because I’ve been and I’m in the same situation and you’ve helped me deal with my issues and depression etc and I like reading to make sure you’re okay and when I see your posts and you need opinions or just a friendly face ill always be here if you need me you know that 🙂

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