Maybe it’s just part of getting older, but I can’t believe another year is just about over! 2014 was quite a roller coaster for me, some great good times and some bad lows. I don’t know if I would say it was a good year, or a bad year, but I definitely know that I am not the same woman leaving this year behind as I was coming into it.
I’m ready for some change. I’m ready to let go of some things and move forward. I feel it in my soul; I just have this deep sense of needing (and wanting) to let go of the past. Of K, mostly, but not just him. Other hurts I’ve felt for a long time. It’s too draining… I just feel drained and exhausted all the time.
As much as I wish things could be different, they aren’t. And I think it’s past time for me to gracefully let go. He’s engaged. If it had been meant to be, it would be me he’s engaged to, but I’m not and it’s not. He’ll always have a special place in my heart, that no one can replace, and I think he’ll always be a bit of a tender subject to me.
I don’t know if I’m ready to date anyone right now. I think I just need to enjoy my time alone, for now… And I know soon, when I’m ready, God will show a special guy into my life. Maybe it’ll be in this new year, or maybe the next.. Whenever it is, I’m patiently looking forward to it.
I’m excited to see what this New Year holds for me. Hopefully it’ll be better than this last year has been. One of my goals is to go to at least one place I’ve never been to before. Maybe something fun like Las Vegas, or maybe Yellowstone National Park… We’ll see!
Also, I just want to thank all of you for reading my blog and supporting me! It’s very nice to know people care about me and my life, and I greatly appreciate all of your comments and advice.. Here’s to another great year of blogging!!
Love you guys! Happy New Year!